By Mike Sain't Louis ·
Soy marica sideral: silence in heels
«No vine a salvar tu mood, vine a tomar mi space» ("I didn't come to save your mood, I came to take my space"). With that opening, Soy marica sideral (I'm a Sidereal Queer) makes clear from the first second what it's about: taking your place without apologising and without explaining yourself.
The song mixes Spanish and English completely naturally, and that's part of its attitude. It's the language of someone who has lived in many places, seen a lot of Instagram and moves between two worlds with no hang-ups. If your man gets confused, let him look at my elegance. My life isn't a test. I walk without noise and now I shine without stress.
The chorus is my favourite part. It says not to confuse light with noise, that you don't need to shout to shine. And if it stings you that I don't beg, learn to breathe. I really like it because it dismantles a cliché: the idea that being queer and visible always has to be scandalous. Here the strength is in the calm. «Soy silencio con tacones» ("I'm silence in heels") seems to me one of the best definitions of myself I've ever written.
The lyrics also answer the usual labels. They've called me over the top, theatrical, emotional. But nobody says anything about the textbook narcissist I had next to me. It's a very specific criticism of how people who express emotions get judged while the one who manipulates quietly gets forgiven.
And there's a verse that turns the problem around very elegantly: if you don't know how to look at me, my «pluma» (my flamboyance) isn't the problem, it's your mirror that cracks when fear poisons you. The pluma doesn't hide; the fear belongs to the other person.
I love sideral as a word, because it's a way of saying this planet is far from Earth's rules. It's a queen from another galaxy, shining in her own way.
I dedicate it to anyone learning not to shrink so others can feel comfortable. Put it on as you leave the house, head high, in whatever heels you've got, even imaginary ones.
The full lyrics are below. Listen on Spotify
Lyrics · Soy Marica Sideral
No vine a salvar tu mood,vine a tomar mi space.Si tu macho se confunde,let him watch my grace.
I don’t ask for permission,mi vida no es un test.Yo camino sin ruido,y ahora brillo sin stress.
Don’t confuse my light with noise,yo no grito pa’ brillar.Si te escuece que no ruegue,baby, aprende a respirar.
I’m not here pa’ tu despecho,ni pa’ darte que pensar.Soy silencio con tacones,soy marica sideral.
Me han llamado exagerada,teatral y emocional.Pero nadie dice nadadel puto narci de manual.
I don't shrink pa' que te sientasmás seguro en tu papel.No me cambio ni me escondo,tu aplauso equivale a morder.
Don’t confuse my light with noise,yo no grito pa’ brillar.Si te escuece que no ruegue,baby, aprende a respirar.
I’m not here pa’ tu despecho,ni pa’ darte que pensar.Soy silencio con tacones,soy marica sideral.
Y si no sabes mirarme,no es mi pluma el problema.Es tu espejo el que se quiebracuando el miedo te envenena.
Don’t confuse my light with noise,yo no grito pa’ brillar.Si te escuece que no ruegue,baby, aprende a respirar.
I’m not here pa’ tu despecho,ni pa’ darte que pensar.Soy silencio con tacones,soy marica sideral.
Lyrics as published with the official music video, on the MIKE SAIN'T LOUIS label.