Ruido en mi mente, a night without silence

Not everything on PLANETA GAYFOLK is laughter and glitter. Ruido en mi mente (Noise in My Mind) is one of those songs that sounds like three in the morning, when your head won't shut up and the bed turns into an interrogation room.

The lyrics are full of images I like a lot for how physical they are. A stopped clock that, even so, screams its tick. Air that weighs like a grey brick. Broken hours dancing in the shadows. And the moon, which in other songs would be romantic, here mocks with an idiotic cackle. I find it funny that even in the blackest moments an adjective like that, so everyday, sneaks in.

There's a line that for me sums it all up: «El pasado se sienta al filo de mi cama» (The past sits on the edge of my bed). I picture it as a visitor who won't leave, legs crossed, reminding you who's in charge. The lyrics give it a harsher twist by saying that whoever listens is its «esclava» (slave, in the feminine), the way so many of us talk among ourselves.

A maze with no exit

The second half plays with the idea of the maze. You want to escape, but the exit laughs in another way. You fall into split mirrors and the reflection is wounded. And then comes the question anyone who has been through a bad patch has asked at some point: whether what you're living is real or the echo of something you can't manage to forget.

The chorus repeats the word noise three times, like hammering, and that's exactly how it feels. You close your eyes and it doesn't go away. You run in circles. You stifle the scream and nobody sees it. The last chorus adds a beautiful detail: building a wall so you can see yourself afterwards. It's a way of protecting yourself that doesn't always work, and the song admits it without making it pretty.

I don't recommend it for a party. I recommend it for when you're in that place and need someone to put it into words. Sometimes knowing that someone else goes through the same thing already turns the volume down a little.

And if you've never had a night like that, listen anyway. It'll help you understand someone who does.

The full lyrics are below. Listen on Spotify